Should've straighten it earlier!

The 4 of them are always gonna give a hand whenever The One of us are having this problem.

What the heck i was thinking!! I shouldn't be so selfish rite? I still have my friends!~! I was so narrow-minded..! It started from my 1st thoughts.. Now i know i'm not that left out when i was sick..!! and i was hyper again.. after picking up that call from.. errr my best friend? and a precious text message? A crush would not help when you're sick.. A good friend would not know when you're asking for help.. But best friends are always willing to comfort you when you get sick..

Im so wrong.. Me myself is not balancing my own friendships.. I now have to share my time and not so antisocial for my studies.. and for my pals.. and even a crush.. I cant be so selfish anymore..
Not even for a mosquitoe in my room buzzing around me like sh!t.. Im now willing to share my time.. with them.. for my forever best friend..

and i now know wat im typing again.. they inspire me.. from their sentences.. from the creation of 'potato day'.. i was always busy doing my homework.. always neglect what we've suggested.. always forgot what we've aiming for..

Its my fault.. its always my fault.. i guess we know each other 9 years ago.. i was not wrong.. since kindergarden.. until now.. we're in high school now .. running out of time studying.. everyday..

we should have a hang out again.. just four of us.. on the 'potato day'.. i hope.. and i wish .. we will never forget.. the Childish between us.. the Sarah aka Haras , thou wen , Kimmy, and me Wei hua.. which combine together became the most playful " Sarah Kim Wen Hua "

and Im here to annouce :" Iloveyouguys and our 'Potato Day' "

The Golden *Bold* *Italic* Thoughts |EVER|.

>| 海角7号 |<

每个人的心中都有一封寄不出的情信,

不管是寄到天涯，还是。。。

人只能活一回，梦想却又无数个 唯有放手一搏， 才能知道机会属不属于自己。

Sean Kingston feat Fergie - Big girls don't cry

I hope you know, i hope you know
That this had nothing to do with you
Its personal, Myself and I
We've got some straightening out to do
And im gonna miss you like a child misses their blanket
But i've got to get a move on with my life
Its time to be a big girl now
and big girls don't cry

don't cry
don't cry
don't cry

~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

Nice songs that i didn't realize it.

My heart want something.
That I'm forcing myself to not have it.
Always.

It seems like i like to control what i want
too much.
I can feel.
The way I kept quiet.
The way I smile.
and
The way I talk.

I need to rest.

I don't wan to live like this.
I want to be like everyone else.

But why?
I am a scor
i AM a scor
A scor?

Is it nice?
Sometimes i love it.
but sometimes i feel like hating it.
What the hell?

and
sometimes i think i shouldn't hate it
because its a gift
from God.

Yes.
I cant hate it.
Maybe it brings benefits?
or maybe i'm suitable to be a scor?

thats what God want me to be right?

I wanna ask You.
Why me?

Why I'm the one who suffering ya?

I don't want myself to be like this you know?

But how?

How to change my thinking?

I should have a busy time right now..

But why cant I made my life busy?

So i can don't think about this again

Anymore?

Anymore ideas?

I need to rest.

Seriously.

But i can never put this burden down from my shoulder.

I have to put these stones down One by One.

have to figure out a way.

To let me have a distance.

with X.

To bring me stay closer.

with all my friends.

To drag myself.

Study.

Scorrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr

>| Speechless |<

...我真的...不太明白...为什么？彼此间的感情明明是那么的深厚，却仍然无法表达出来...为什么宁愿撒谎，都不肯向前进呢...

i have no comment
As in ..
erm i'm really speechless right now..
so..
i will be continue next time..
.....

Sh!t MYSELF!

>| There must be something! |<

OH YES.
Im qualified to go for pure science class.. muahahaha
even though its crappy but i dont care.

I am HAPPY but kinda sad too.
leaving 4F class is sad but leaving my friends are more depressed
I currently missing my class now..
but i had to go for pure..
no choice..
love the subjects.
don like the class much..
too quiet.
too boring.
wont joke around anymore.
a new life?
kinda.
LOL
I MISS 4F!!!!!!!!

Oh yah.. there must be something..
if not X wouldnt complain that he's so stress..
worried?
i dunno..
i'd no chance to ask .
but i will try.
if there's another chance to talk with him..

just happy to be friends.
never think more than that.
Never.
caught me lying to myself
Again.

i have to shake away every thoughts in my mind.
just to concentrate
on my studies.
Really.
Its happy to talk to.
But its stupid to lost concentration.

我小鹿乱撞了啦!!

>| Why do we shout? |<

One day, a professor asked his students 'Why do we SHOUT instead of speak when we are ANGRY?'

All the students thought for a while. One answered 'Because we lost our cool. That's why we SHOUT.'

Asked the professor again, 'But the person is just right next to you, why can't we talk softly but have to SHOUT?'

Everyone gave their opinions but none was accepted by the professor.

Lastly explained by the professor 'When we are ANGRY, our hearts drift apart. To mask the DISTANCE we felt, we instinctively SHOUT instead of speak so the other party can hear us.'

'But as we SHOUT, we get ANGRIER. And we felt we drift apart further. So we SHOUT even louder...'

'It is the opposite when we are in love. Not only we do not shout, we whisper into each other ears. Why?'

'This is because our hearts are very close, almost never apart. As our love deepen, we reach a state of communication where there is no need for words.'

'We understand each other well enough just by exchanging look,' concluded the professor.

'Therefore, when we are arguing, DO NOT speak words that will make our hearts drift apart. WAIT a few days. When you feel your hearts are no longer far apart, pick up the conversation and continue from there.'