>| E.M.O. 2 |<

Yesterday was a bad luck day .
So, Today is a unhappy day.

I went out with friends.
I watch movie.
I saw former school friends.
I ran like a lost rat.
I laugh.
I sang.
I sleep.
I cried.
I play games.
I talked.
I ate.
I read books.
I pretend im sick.
I put handkerchief on my head.
I wore jacket.
I fight my bolster.

But whatever I did.
My mind was focusing on the scene . Every moves in there is still fresh.
In the library, walking towards my friend's group. Trying to have fun.

This is how its started.
I even had nightmare last night.
Its not about you laughing at me.
It is about you telling me who do you have a crush on.

Non-sense rite? I have no idea i can dream of that.
I still can remember who is the girl in the dream and that girl is the most perfect girl i saw when i came to this school.

I have no idea how it happens.

My blank stares.
I stunt.
My cheek went pink.
Hell no, I should control these 3 devils.

I still try to calm myself down and listening to all my friend that comforts me.
I know you guys are helpful. But its useless for me. and im really sorry guys.
I think if i keep blaming myself i would be better. I wont talk about it anymore.

I'll just keep everything in mind. Okay?

Embarrassing !!!!

Embarrassing moment i ever had in my life!!! arghhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh

i don wan to go to school anymore@!! i hate myself!!
arghhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh

in front of the person some more!! arghhhhhhhhhhhhhh shit shit shit!!
damn it

why am i so stupid!?!?!?!?!?!?! i wanna die !! don wanna live anymore!! its been so long i always did stupid in front of that!!

what happen to me?!??!?!?! aiyah tell or don tell??!?!?! i never do this before!! OMGOMGOGMOGMG

what happen to me? why i became so crazy about that ?

I should calm myself down .

>| New Phone |<

>| I just get a new walkman phone today and its so cool! |<

There's a shake control for me to change songs and it is really cool and nice. I love it man! Still playing with it! Shhhh dont disturb ^^

>| Im fine, Duh! |<

>| I was not too hyper after Pmr too. But now, I'm hyper again! Gratzzz, wei hua! |<

Pmr celebration was kinda cool. lol i wonder if there is anytime we can hang out like that again! lol. Yesterday was a really cool day too! In the morning me and my family went to this high class restaurant to eat Dim sum. lol. theres scallop in a crab shell covered with baked cheese! lol i ate it the second time for the second week. The 1st time i ate it is before Pmr, my dad bring to me eat high class food just to relax me. hahah.

After eating breakfast, we went to Ikano at 1pm . We actually wanted to buy wines for tonight's Grandpa birthday party! lol . we brought 3 and Grandpa brought 1 and my God father brought 1 too. That night we really drink alot. But my dad just buy 2 sparkling for us, small kids. =.=

Anyway, around 5pm my Grandpa came. I was really tired. Cause we my family was buying adidas shoes. Im kinda a little dizzy again, yeah, low blood pressure. So i stand aside while my bro brought 2 pairs really expensive shoes. o.0 and my dad a pair of adidas sport shoes. my bro brought that walking shoes is made with leather inside it, and outside is some kind of animal skin. but its limited edition of adidas! lol. cool eh.

Come back here, we rested awhile at home and then go to the restaurant together. My God father and mother arrive later. Me and my Grandma was so exited to walk on the red carpet even it was prepared for the bride and groom. lol. The room was really big. and I keep playing with the karaoke's set. And we took pictures... ...... but we havent warm up yet. As in .... singing.. .... LOL.

We ate 1st, cause my grandparents will go home earlier or something and it was still early. then when we're kinda full. we start singing! and i keep singing and singing like no one else is there. everyone was shocked include my parents! EVERYONE!! lol it was funny to make them zha dao. hahah everyone did not KNOW i can sing. wow. thats so cool! and no matter what songs. Old songs , chinese songs, english songs, Rock songs. i can remember how the tone is. actually i can did this is because i keep listening to songs over and over again and memorize every songs. and light and easy helps alot. i keep listening to that station and oldies was fun to sing too!

When the song 月亮代表我的心 was choosen. I saw my grandpa was singing that. and i quickly run toward him and gave him the microphone. i had the picture. he sing until everyone laugh! is because he was slower . lol having fun time, duh! It was a One-Girl-Show that night actually. no one beat me, you know why? i can sing without saying 'I'd not enough breathe'. it was so cool to sing karaoke for the 1st time people just listen to you! i can never think of that but i just did it yesterday! lol

Singing really made me become myself. Errrr. it was because i was emo before my grandpa's party. even the Pmr celebration was not too happy too. but now i know im a little bit better!

Grandparents