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>| ?Why am I so stupid? |<

How i know why are you stupid, wei hua? lol It was just a . . a . . a . . . . . . i dont know what to name that day ..but i know it was 26th of June o.0 and it was just normally ..a sad day? maybe.. maybe not.. maybe its a good hint? i dont knoww..and today? i know im stupid to cried it out loud . . .

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ITS ALL BECAUSE OF JASON =.=

I feel like dreaming and i did . i dream for a whole day and i dont know why.. Sarah knows im dreaming..so she try to slap me for waking me up.. maybe my eyes are tired ..and when i was joking as usual..i were laughing but suddenly stop cause i don get myself into the jokes... asking myself why am i laughing so happily..
i was stunt again

Recess time.. i was joking so happily with wen .. i shout so loudly " Im a Big Fat Multi-Coloured Polka Dotted Cow " i know im stupid and lame.. but im just trying to tell wen and sarah that im okay ..or maybe thats the way to cheer everyone up ^^ actually im not so happy with my jokes today .. i cant just laugh for 5 minutes as usual to forget some thing already.. it doesn't work anymore ! and i went to see chee hong.. when he saw me at the corridor. . he went back in his class, throwing his bag on his chair..

Trying to advice me.. ' If u really really really really ( i dont know how many times he repeated )' but i interrupted him.. ' Okay, i know what u wan to say . continue'

'Its been 3 years right? so try to get someone or you, yourself.. to CONFESS'
'Okay. . But i think it will be worser'
'Its already 3 years.. Why dont you just tell, if not it would be worser'
I was looking around..i dont know what to do and i can hear my heart beat when listening to his advice . .
haiz.. wei hua ah wei hua.. why things suddenly gone so wrong??
I dont know !! i asked my self tons of question but i just cant answer it !!

'I will think about it..See first and i'll give u an answer'
He said ok .. but it driving me crazier .. lol
things are like that.. when you really like someone after a long time.. now i get it
but i don wan to make things worse and thats all..
i still don know whats my answer

Going back home.. mum was asking what i wanna eat..
we're gonna eat somewhere near..
so i decided to go to ikano..
even though the food looks delicious at ikea..
but i can taste it at all like yesterday night..
yesterday night i ate lamb chop with mashed potatoes.. it was my favourite food
but i found out its not nice at all..maybe is my mood..

anyways i went to Popular bookstore..
looking for some confessing girlish book which is my 1st time doing it..
i drag my mum there and i found out there's a book

"10 ways to cope your boy"

haha.. 1st time reading this type of book.Inside there was a quiz ..

You and Your Lad : Suit him or Boot him.

1. How much did he text you?
a) At least 10 a day
Not at all.
b) Less than 5 a day
Nah. . .
c) Once a day
. . .
d)Once a week
lol lol ..

My answer is not there.. =.+" its Zero a month. its worser than the answers.. i know

2. Does he have a nickname for you?
a) Yes
Nope
b) No
Yup
c) When no one around
We never get to be alone together before =.=
d) When he think its romantic
LoL

3) How often did you meet him?
a) Everyday
Hah ! i wish to
b) Five days a week
Nope
c) Only weekends
Nope
d) it depends
Its a No.. i only get to see him every thursday and thats it..

4) What is his favourite ?
a) His favourite is his MP3 Player
I guess so .. he listen to songs while teacher is teaching and talking to friends..
b) His favourite is his teddy bear.
I don think so .. He looks more mature
c) His favourite is watching football match
I dont know if he did watch football but i know he plays football games on the phone. o.0
d)Forgotten what the book wrote LOL

5) Where did he always spend time on?
a) He spend his time on his lads and with you
I guess so .. but there's without me .. =.+"
b) ??
c) ??
d) ??

I forgotten but i only remember this.. cause this answer suit him i think. o.0

6) What's your idea if u go out with him?
a) Watch movies at the side of the cinema
I hope sooooo ^^
b) Have a candlelit dinner of two in a restaurant
lol .. its sounds so old =.=
c) Watch football at the side of the pitch
Nope
d) Watch football on the telly
It would be boring .. *yawn* What's telly anyways?

7) Whats his idea if he go out with you?
a) Watching movies at the side of the cinema
b) Have a candlelit dinner of two in a restaurant
c) Watch football match at the side of the pitch
d) Watch football match on the telly

I dont know what he's thinking, okay?

8) Will you go out with your mates rather than going out with him?
Forgot the answers =.= sorry
But my answer is . . . i don know

9) My memory SUCKs.. cant remember this question but at least i remember the last question ^^

10) Can you live without boys?
a) Yes
Of course !
b) No
Boy is not part of my life =.=
c) its depends - if i don have a good internet friend
HAHA. . i got a good internet friend ^^ which is MiMi
d) Forgot whats the answer =.=

I think i need to wake up from my dream though
Let me take a nap ..