im looking for a solution to solve this problem since the year 2009 started.. i knew it will end 1 day. which is year 2010 november. still a long way to go.. clock is ticking and im not resting everyday, every minute, every second. homework is a killer and school no longer fun. im sick.. unlike other smart people. im a lazy and dumb student. cant make it. i can still remember how i wanted to be in pure sci so desperately and frustrated. once i got in.. i was so happy. but the pressure.. is killing me. i never give up. not until next year november. im gonna make it. i told myself. but im half dead RIGHT NOW. parent don seem to be more likely understandable. (i dunno wat im typing) and they are like cops. just judge things when there are prove. im like a wanted person. always caught me slacking around in the house. but they do not see wat i did in school. they do not see how much effort i put in. they do not deserve it. when they look at the marks i get. wow.. im so dead. even i failed 1 subject, others failed 5. they say don look at others. look at your classmate. see how did they do. oh my goodness. my class is those smart and hardworking student and u compared me with them! i said im lazy and dumb! but they will argue saying why aint u not hardworking enough? owh.. fuck off. im sick of these. i pressure my self to pass all subject ya know? i stressed myself to go tuition and is actually pay attention for every class i attended! u don have the eye to see me how stressful it is and u just fcuk everything up? im not angry when im trying to say this. just wanna let it all out. i kept this for like .. since i had my highschool life. omgawd. its really killing me when u're not supporting me u know.. i don know why. i don understand. u will think im still a young, naive girl. not even mature yet. and u were yelling at me not to facebook, not to upload photos on the web. not to twitter. which everyone know ur secret. not to blog. ppl will find out bout ur life. oooo.. so wat? i keep all to myself? im gonna be sooooo dead.
im really out. i wanna runaway 1 day. 1 day is enough. i wanna be alone. really alone. leave me alone. i wanna enjoy that day. i wanna relax. clear my mind. before i can really move on on my lfie again. i need to chillax. leave stress behind. i need a brighter future. i hope alot. i wish alot.. i hope God will help. and i know He will. so i tried my best. i know they nag and yell at me is good. and im not good enough. but everyone is not perfect. i also don wanna be perfect. but i wanna be consistent. i wanna find one day. but how? i wanna runaway one day. but i cant.
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Can You Leave Me Here Alone Now
I Don't Wanna Hear You Say
That You Know Me
That I Should Be Always Doing What You Say
Cause I'm Trying To Get Through Today
And Theres One Thing I Know
I Don't Wanna Think About You
Think About Me
Don't Wanna Figure This Out
Don't Wanna Think About You
Think About Nothing
Don't Wanna Talk This One Out
Wont Let You Bring Me Down
Cause I Know
I Don't Wanna Think About You
Dont Wanna Think About You
When I Wake Up Here Tomorrow
Things Will Never Be The Same
'Cause I Won't Wait
You Won't Change
And You'll Always Be This Way
I'm Going To Get Through Today
'Cause I Know
I Don't Wanna Think About You
Think About Me
Don't Wanna Figure This Out
Don't Wanna Think About You
Think About Nothing
Don't Wanna Talk This One Out
This Time I Wont Let You Bring Me Down
Won't Let You Shut Me Out
This Time I Know
I Don't Wanna Think About You
Runaway, Runnaway
I'm Running As Fast As I Can
Runaway, Runaway
I'll Never Come Back Again
Runaway, Runaway
Don't Wanna Think About You
Think About Me
Don't Wanna Figure This Out
Don't Wanna Think About You
Think About Me
Don't Wanna Talk This One OuT
I Don't Wanna Think About You
Think About Me
Don't Wanna Figure This Out
Don't Wanna Think About You
Think About Nothing
Don't Wanna Talk This One Out
This Time I Wont Let You Bring Me Down
Won't Let You Shut Me Out
This Time I Know
I Don't Wanna Think About You
Runaway Runaway
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Please guide me!
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