Planned!

I understand. You know what? I understand why be in a relationship is god damn tired. Is about to compromise with our parents. We cant be caught up into that situation because they will punished us and we cant be together with our loved ones. Besides, whenever we wanna go out with 'em. We have to lie. Isn't it? If your parents are open minded enough. It's not a problem for you! But MOST of the parents now do not allow their kids be on a relationship. Why? Because they want them to get good results. and worst of all. we don't do that. (as for a normal kid like me ><) So, this is in my point of view~!

To avoid this situation. I came out with this idea. Which is: For this final term examination, and for next year restream, (our stupid school is going to restream us again in our form 5 year =.=") I planned to study really hard. So I can tell them/prove to them I can do good in my studies and be in a relationship simultaneously! ....

Actually, it's all in my mind. Scorpio needs these two. Its important for 'em. It's important for scorpio to have romance and career. Seriously, No lying. hmm.. and i had these planing came into my mind.

My mind is so busy during this week holidays. Hahas. Not really having fun ya know. T__T sad case.

Lies.

I want to go. But I don't want to ask. and maybe better i don't go. Im tired of. errr.. Lying.
Can I don't lie to my parents?

To go.
I have to lie.
No more any better way.
Im tired.
Serious.

Hey!

You know what? Do you know that? Im such a useless girlfriend ya know.. serious im serious. really true and not false.. hmm.. how u say that? erm.. kinda wierd u know.. but its true..

some times i hate. some times i like. and sometimes i LOVE.

scorpio

hmm.. cause.. its wat u wan. u must get. isnt it selfish? but its the scope. *sigh*

wat if i don believe it? No way! You gotta be kidding me rite? hmm it is real ya know that?
erm.. can i change it? lol.. its funny.
how can u change its own personalities?
owh.. maybe i can? Or maybe not...

feeling down..

I wan you.
Shift to my school.
It's selfish.
I know.
So i hide my feelings.
To not let your parents think im those 'kind' of girl.
So I don't wanna talk bout it anymore.
Alright?

Nah. i know im not alright. that's shows how useless am i.

I just know how to make you cry.
I only pile up your burden.
I don't make any difference in your life.
I don't think im perfect for you.
But i love u very much.
But is there anything i do for you is helpful enough?




Recently, Im soooooo in love with piano! lol..
watch this http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Zw9xzXenpgY&NR=1

hmm..
shouldn't be so str8 forward rite? im not that kind of person. T__T
*sigh*

Im soooooo worried!

argh.. why so many things need to get over it ahh? haiss this saturday O.o sighh i really dunno lehh.. then tonight oso i die lor? T.T dam wad la.. why all oso seems like i'd lied to them then hard to cover the truth T.T i really dunno lehhhhhh! SHIT! SHITY ME! wanna kill my own self liao .. hais..
take a deep breath
take a deep breath
T.T
wana chill
but cant.
why so sad?

Que sera sera

He, the love of my life and he knew it. He, with his dark intense eyes that pierce right through my soul and smooth, raven hair that falls lightly in front of his face, complementing his fair skin and cute lips. My mouth practically gaped open when he walked in front of me and flashed his dazzling smile. I quickly turned away before he saw me blush.

I had so many dream about you and me.
This evening i dreamed bout..
Me.
Going to your bm tuition and drag u out of the class by telling teacher some stupid reasons.
Then we run out to some places near by the tuition center and i celebrate your birthday with you.
Alone.
Wanna get with you for an hour just because it is your big day.
Very big.
Cause you're turning SIXTEEN.
A young adult.
Kinda.
Or
Almost.

I could make this as a surprise.
But i have no guts doin it.
So sorry.
So I'm just dreaming bout it whole day.
Hah. Crazy me.
I always thought.
But no way.
LOL!

What will be will be.

@.@

Do you know that it's very painful and suffering?

It's so painful to see you put that picture in your msn. i cant take it. im sorry to say that but seriously. it makes me think bout her again. i still remember u told me bout her. you're desperate for her. i was trying calm you down at that time. i remember every time u talked to me bout her. u told me everything bout her. and now. i cant stop thinking bout the past about you and her. it really hurt me. but i don wanna cry right now. later im going tuition. i just dam fucking emo. that's all. im such a sensitive girlfriend right? stupid me. i shouldn't be this way. i always think that loving someone must be happy. cause u found your love one. but i just don know why im like this. is there anything to change me? not to think bout her anymore? i hope i don know him from the start. until we recently meet each other. then we couple. isn't it better for both of us?


‡†№₄ Hoong™†‡ - じ √ір™ says:
darling
~ .:.:. aH Hua .:.:. ~ XP says:
yea
‡†№₄ Hoong™†‡ - じ √ір™ says:
u ok ma?
~ .:.:. aH Hua .:.:. ~ XP says:
yea
‡†№₄ Hoong™†‡ - じ √ір™ says:
can tell me just now wad u thinking?
~ .:.:. aH Hua .:.:. ~ XP says:
nothing

I'd lied.
and im not gonna put any symbols anymore. Not in this post.

Little too not over you?

I love you!

Well you stood there with me, in the doorway

My hands shake, I'm not usually this way but

You pull me in, and I'm a little more brave
It's the first kiss
It's flawless
It's really something
It's fearless

No matter wat people said bout you. No matter what's wrong with it. I still love you! xD Like i always said:" I DON CARE" or "DON WORRY!" ^^ but sometimes i hesitate too! just wonder.. yeah.. wonder why. and wonder how. xD but no worries dear! hehe xP. and this is the most true love i ever had O.o not like the past. stupid girl yea? haha im so in love with you!

Cause I dont know how it gets better than this
You take my hand and drag me head first, fearless
And I dont know why but, with you Id dance
In a storm in my best dress, fearless

I smiled.
I laughed.
I cried.
I dreamed.
I run.
I eat.
I sleep.
I listen.
But.
I love you more.

.:.:. Whities .:.:.

lol.. can feel the heart pain wan.. O.o serious.. everytime saw his ex online.. walao.. i mean her fren. yea.. dam wad lor.. zzz i wanna know more thing but cannot like that =.= dam wat la..argh the heart so pain wan when i wan to know but cannot ask like that =.= coz i really like him ma.. then .. that small little girl like so innocent.. then no point for me to ask her or wat rite.. like very busy body.. sometimes when he's with me right.. i will emo and think .. whether he think of her when im his gf now? or when i hug him does he think bout how he hug her? in my mind was all about her.. this naive form 2 girl.. i still remember i ask him not to break up.. just because he argued with her.. i feel so useless coz i am really useless.. T.T i everytime no mood oso think like this oni.. hais.. i really dunno wat to do laaa.. and i don know whether he got feel the same thing as mine when i get along with guys =.= i didnt mean to talk to guys some times.. but just .. i just don know how to tell them i don wan to talk to them.. sometimes.. is confusing.. swt i do not wanna care bout anything now.. but he's always the best for me.. i don blame him.. i just wonder.. wonder..

WONDERISM =.=

7/25/09

"need someone who will always put me 1st in everything, someone who will always be there for me... ='( "


cheer up! ah sue ahh ! lol.. no matter wat, we still best fren rite? hahaha so funny when we're talking bout our own one's and compare.. LOL ... even though we're different class though the friendship were not far apart O.o hehehehe

ytd went to frilla's bbq party O.o at 1st my bf told me he and his frens going to a bbq party.. then his frens is sitting behind me oso.. LOL then we're all frens la.. so.. they tease us when they get to know me and my bf is together.. swt so.. um.. like this la.. then i went.. and alot of classmate oso there.. then make frens lor.. O.o quite okay also but all oso prefect de =.= walao.. all know i got bf liao .. swt Zzz nevermind.. i don care liao.. monday go school die oni la XD ..
then alot more to write .. i lazy write becoz..
1st : It's private.
2nd : im lazy.

LOL wat had happen is in my mind. haha.. i'll never forget how it happen and when it happen. which is yesterday =.=

heheheheh

[初吻给了自己喜欢的人~]

i really sigh

don think ....................................... so.. there's this person.. i wonder if he knew.. if he know.. if he know.. he..... he.. knew.. im lost.. ... .. or ?


{我好像不会谈恋爱}

i just wanna cope with everything and everything will be just fine.. i guess O.o im happy.. im sad.. im emo.. im excited.. im depressed.. everything.. but nothing is gonna let me down anymore..O.o eventhough im still not sure yet but.. i think everything will be just fine.. right?

O.o So what?

puzzle
puzzle
puzzle
puzzle
puzzle
puzzle
puzzle
puzzle
puzzle
puzzle

Stop.

So... ... wat is it about?

lol

Him.

You sure?

Right...?

Yea.

Are you serious?

mhmm.

It's great..

i love it like that.

Breathless.

Choking me out.

Wanna be like that, everyday.

Nope, not working out.

Yes. its cool.

Ya right!

Okay fine. umm.. umm.. mhmm.. breathless.. lol didnt think so much.. haha.. i don really wanna say out here cause 'someone' might reading it T.T .. i didnt know if i should write it here.. but i love my dar dar so muchie!! xD im glad that i had u.. fine fine.. i'll write it down.. i'll write it down =.= ummmm.. um....so paiseh!! lol.. anyway.. i tell u guys a story..

there's this girl and this boy.. both of them are together.. and .. they're not in the same school.. but i know.. they both love each other and .. then when they meet each other O.o her heart beat just pound too fast until she cant breath.! lol it's more than had a crush on other guys.. hahah u get that feeling too? and and u know.. when they grab each other hands.. that feeling is ............ sooo in love with each other like no else is around.. lol .. .. .. ..

I LOVE U SO MUCH!

I don wan to be like this!

I just don wanna argue with you la.. i just love u too much until im too sensitive already.. i always wonder if u can always stay right beside me.. but.. it wont work.. i know.. i shouldnt be so selfish.. i wanna accept ur apology.. but i did not do that.. because im not satisfied.. i hate it this way...

i just hope for the best about both of us.. i don really know wat to do.. the very last time im in love was way too long ago.. now.. its new to me again.. i don really know how to handle it and this is really important to me.. i don wanna be that naive small little girl anymore.. playing with other people's feelings is just not my type.. but is there anything i have to do ? i don really know much but.. i always hoping... and hoping.. it would be better.. i just love him..

i think i had just fcuk everything up =.=

simply bury the hatchet?

dotzzz

你给异性一种很沉默、文静的印象，但给同性一种消极、不开朗的感觉，没有人知道
你的脑中到底在想什么，所以要追求你相当地累，因为你不太表达自己真正的想法、
感觉或许就是这种特质，给人一种"神秘"感，因此异性缘相当不错，但可不要因为
自己的不果断，而同时脚踏好几条船，这样最后可会一无所有喔！

hehehe.. nothing to blog about lehh.. =.=

Some rules are meant to be broken

I dye my hair.
I couple with a boy.

It says it all?

&&&&&&&&&

HE DIDNT REPLY ME!! wthhhhhh.. why he never reply me wan? while im sick, when i got all sorts of problems!! why he didnt reply me? i spam his msn, facebook, smses..
WHY ARE YOU NOT REPLYING ME WHEN IM IN TROUBLES!?!?
wthh.. T.T

I really need you.

6.27.09

WOw.. so tiring.. hhehe actuali planning to cut boyish hairstyle O.o but everyone asked me not to cut.. so.. and then if i cut.. lollipop say he like long hair girl.. so.. and then .. choon hoong say long hair girl is hot.. of coz la.. =.= they long hair ma.. sure hot la.. =.= (bu shuang) im so desperate? lol kinda.. EVERYONE wans me to leave long hair.. then leave lor.. hais.. anything la.. um..

saturday? nth much to do actualli.. but whole afternoon chatting with lollipop.. kinda sian i dunno wat topic to tlak about ..=.= how ah? really dying.. going bad.. =.= i think no hope lor..

and i didnt cut my hair because he like long hair.. wth? i oso got think bout me la.. if i don listen to him.. i wan the way i like.. so how is it? if i really cut.. then he don like me? so y i bother? so wat? but still. i did not take the risk.. O.o

at night.. came back home at 8 gua.. then bro say go watch movie.. i tot we both oni.. then we go ikea 1st.. he eat.. then meet his fren .. his fren oso bring his sis.. but so young.. ok ok la.. then walk lor.. meet another 2 fren at some restaurant.. that my bro best fren keep looking at me =.= trying to hide oso.. this is the 3rd time i met him.. 1st was in prom night, KL tower.. and 2nd is he come to my house to do.. um something to sell.. lol the sis keep on looking at me.. haha anyway .. the whole outing i didnt talk.. LOL.. i always like that de la.. im not bored oso.. then hor.. transformer from 9 to 12am lol.. after that we all go makan.. at ss2 murni.. O.o so suspicious la.. i saw 2 groups from cineleisure watch movie oso then later i saw them at thr eating oso.. y all so gam 1? all go thr somemore.. then when drinks come.. i tot its mine or bro la.. then i take lor.. then my bro ask.. this is ur 1 meh? then i push to him la.. then he say is my 1 meh? then he go push to his fren.. =.= swt.. i dunno ma.. then his fren say.. she tired already is it? LOL.. bro kept quiet and look around.. o.o

Exhausted.

Im trying to hide again. O.o this time.. im trying to shift school O.o im trying to shift back to SMK BU4. but i don think my dad will let.. after telling him about this. O.o i really wanted to but.. sigh.. i think no hope la.. im actuali wanna go back thr to start all over again. as in teachers and homework and study =.= i cant stand my own class and the homeworks is getting more and more until i have tuitions and barely finish it on time u know? and the advantage that is.. i can walk to school. and mum do not need to fetch me everyday from school. and and another thing is.. the class there is not so stressful as in my class now.. its killing me =.= i really don know how to tell my dad about this. O.o

sigh.. im just trying to hide rite? hide away from my school now? =.= i really dunno wat to do besides that.. nothing make it better, i really dunno wat to do.. no one ever guide me.. how ah? i really dunno lehhhhh.. T_T

funny

You have just sent a nudge. *
Gĩߧǿņ™=劫神 says: *halo *eh
~ .:.:. aH Hua .:.:. ~ [He the sunshine] says: *hi *yes?
Gĩߧǿņ™=劫神 says: *friday cnt go training adi *i spraint my leg
~ .:.:. aH Hua .:.:. ~ [He the sunshine] says: *OMG *ok ma? *lol *nice ma? *i wan oso *i never try before T.T
Gĩߧǿņ™=劫神 says: *u siao?
~ .:.:. aH Hua .:.:. ~ [He the sunshine] says: *nope *i wan *try *XD *XP
Gĩߧǿņ™=劫神 says: *i walk walk suddenly leg will pain de-.- *ROFL
~ .:.:. aH Hua .:.:. ~ [He the sunshine] says: *WAAA *SO GOOD *I WAN LEHHHH
Gĩߧǿņ™=劫神 says: *=.=
~ .:.:. aH Hua .:.:. ~ [He the sunshine] says: *how to spraint ur leg 1/ *i wan learn
Gĩߧǿņ™=劫神 says: *zzzz *play basketball landing
~ .:.:. aH Hua .:.:. ~ [He the sunshine] says: *OK *I TRY Gĩߧǿņ™=劫神 says: *anything lar if u really hurt ur leg i dunno u lor-.- ~ .:.:. aH Hua .:.:. ~ [He the sunshine] says: *broke better *LOL

love sssLollipopsss

hehehehehhehehhehehehe....

i brought about 20 lollipops from school today... am i crazy? LOL.. and ytd i brought some sweet also.. pn er saw me brought sweets for 2 days liao.. hahaha then she called my name.. SO LOUD.. like scolding me like that. i was shocked. the 1st thing i tot was .. i did passed up my homework rite? then she say.. "AUI YONG WEI HUA!! U AH.. YTD SEE U BUY THE SWEET!! TODAY BUY LOLLIPOP?!?! NOT GOOD 1 AH.. BAD FOR HEALTH.. " hahahahahah i was smiling all the way she warned me.. and that time so many ppl in front somemore!! cause clive is selling lollipop to me .. hahaha my class oni i buy.. ..... .... ... sometimes ppl think im crazy, like a guy who always eat lollipop in tuition.. and own self also trying to eat also.. y ah? i don understand.. and david says he is an idiot? T_T nvm.. its okay.. i did not make any move for him.. i just like him.. XD i wont emo anymore..

and about just now.. i went tuition.. hehehe.. bio tuition.. should be tuition with him.. but nah.. he go for later class.. so everytime after tuition, i WILL walk to bus stop XD so its far and can meet him on the way.. XD he come to tuition by train.. so... hehehe and then hor.. today i called my dad immediately after tuition.. then, im so happy that he asked me to walk to bus stop again!! heheh.. and then.. he also asked me to slowlyyyyy walk.. then i realy SLOWLY walk.. hahah.. but i slow until.. i reached 7/11 also i haven see him.. T.T was quite upset.. but NVM.. the bus stop is down there but i stay beside 7/11 LOL.. cause the place where the train ppl will walk pass ma.. then i keep waiting and waiting thr, i keep thinking bout him until i forgot bout he's coming!.. suddenly i looked up to the stairs.. and saw HIM!! i was too happy and i quickly take out my phone!! and pretend to text some one? and and when he walk nearer and nearer on the way to me.. i can hear my heart beat.. totally is ... wow.. can really listen to it clearly.. and my leg cramp again.. =.= its totally.. numb and .. cant move at all.. sigh.. is this the sign that i had a crush on him? or wat?

i wanna make this clear.

im happy. but i wont make any move anymore.. like the previous post.. even im frustrated. i will wait.. i will. because. im a scorpio.

Hate being frustrated.

u know, when u wan someone or something so desperately. and u don wanna bother the others and.. try not to get it BUT when u are so dam desperately to get it. .. the feelings. which is when im not satisfied and i hate being like that.

okay, i make it more specific.in my heart, i wan something so desperately, but i don wan it. i force myself not to get it. u understand? i hate that feeling.

but at the end. i wont get it too. failure rite? okay.. everytime. im just afraid. i dunno wat im afraid of. im just afraid. theres so many things for me to worry about. thats all. fullstop.

like like example, im emo, and i wanted someone to listen to me. and in my mind i just keep thinking bout the same thing. but i don feel like bothering them. cause i will make them emo with me also. so i never talk about it again. =.= i kept it to myself. and that feelings is killing me. im so frustrated.

its simple yet tough for me.

oh ya.. bout the .. um.. i told my parents that i don feel like taking tuition for 1 month. 1st, i told my mum, then, she answer like some how yes? then at night, i told my dad, i said can i don take tuition for 1 month? my dad answered:" then y ur brother can make it?" i was really speechless.. and mad and angry and that feeling is so dotzzz . and then he keep asking me why. so i say tired. and i say i wanna study myself. i say its too rush for me.. after school then straight tuition. then he say: u cannot give up 1.. like this then give up already..... omgawdddddd... im really no more hope to talk to him anymore la.. shit.. i feel like crying everytime i talk about this..

I STOP HERE!

Im not happy.

Now i know.

Im trying to hide. im trying to avoid them. im afraid. im scared. nowonder all these time i accept everthing which im afraid to resist. Im always the scaredy cat. I hate school. I mean i love school last year. but not this year. i suck. i cant face the truth. i cried. but the problems is not solve yet. im tired already. i try to sleep. every night and day. but still i can feel the pressure. its not going away. until i really do something on my shoulder. the burden is getting heavier everyday, u know. the part im happy in my life is just getting along with frens. i love my frens. well, i love my subjects. but i don like my school teachers. im afraid of them. i always didnt do homework and im scared they will scold me. actuali i study until forget to do my hw. and i actuali love to slack at home. i feel happy being at home. and when i talk bout this. i think of my std 1 life. omgawd, im a total failure during that time. im serious. during std 1, im in yuk chai school. its afternoon school la. so.. mostly is my nearby neighbour fetch me with his son. and everytime i leave my home. i look at my home from the windscreen. i feel so dam emotional! then i began to cry. EVERYDAY. and my parents went to school to see me when my fren called them to come. see me crying in the school =.= so embarrassing. now.. i had that feelings again. every morning. i feel like crying when leaving the home. am i childish? i don know y all these happening again? i don get it.

im not afraid of study. but im afraid of school. wth is that going to be? im sick. i wanna feel the freedom. i wanna let my shoulder relax for the 1st time. im not satisfied. im emo.

I need some one.

Stress out! Fatigue

Stress...............

im looking for a solution to solve this problem since the year 2009 started.. i knew it will end 1 day. which is year 2010 november. still a long way to go.. clock is ticking and im not resting everyday, every minute, every second. homework is a killer and school no longer fun. im sick.. unlike other smart people. im a lazy and dumb student. cant make it. i can still remember how i wanted to be in pure sci so desperately and frustrated. once i got in.. i was so happy. but the pressure.. is killing me. i never give up. not until next year november. im gonna make it. i told myself. but im half dead RIGHT NOW. parent don seem to be more likely understandable. (i dunno wat im typing) and they are like cops. just judge things when there are prove. im like a wanted person. always caught me slacking around in the house. but they do not see wat i did in school. they do not see how much effort i put in. they do not deserve it. when they look at the marks i get. wow.. im so dead. even i failed 1 subject, others failed 5. they say don look at others. look at your classmate. see how did they do. oh my goodness. my class is those smart and hardworking student and u compared me with them! i said im lazy and dumb! but they will argue saying why aint u not hardworking enough? owh.. fuck off. im sick of these. i pressure my self to pass all subject ya know? i stressed myself to go tuition and is actually pay attention for every class i attended! u don have the eye to see me how stressful it is and u just fcuk everything up? im not angry when im trying to say this. just wanna let it all out. i kept this for like .. since i had my highschool life. omgawd. its really killing me when u're not supporting me u know.. i don know why. i don understand. u will think im still a young, naive girl. not even mature yet. and u were yelling at me not to facebook, not to upload photos on the web. not to twitter. which everyone know ur secret. not to blog. ppl will find out bout ur life. oooo.. so wat? i keep all to myself? im gonna be sooooo dead.

im really out. i wanna runaway 1 day. 1 day is enough. i wanna be alone. really alone. leave me alone. i wanna enjoy that day. i wanna relax. clear my mind. before i can really move on on my lfie again. i need to chillax. leave stress behind. i need a brighter future. i hope alot. i wish alot.. i hope God will help. and i know He will. so i tried my best. i know they nag and yell at me is good. and im not good enough. but everyone is not perfect. i also don wanna be perfect. but i wanna be consistent. i wanna find one day. but how? i wanna runaway one day. but i cant.

Don't wanna think about you - Simple Plan

Can You Leave Me Here Alone Now
I Don't Wanna Hear You Say
That You Know Me
That I Should Be Always Doing What You Say
Cause I'm Trying To Get Through Today
And Theres One Thing I Know
I Don't Wanna Think About You
Think About Me
Don't Wanna Figure This Out
Don't Wanna Think About You
Think About Nothing
Don't Wanna Talk This One Out
Wont Let You Bring Me Down
Cause I Know
I Don't Wanna Think About You
Dont Wanna Think About You
When I Wake Up Here Tomorrow
Things Will Never Be The Same
'Cause I Won't Wait
You Won't Change
And You'll Always Be This Way
I'm Going To Get Through Today
'Cause I Know
I Don't Wanna Think About You
Think About Me
Don't Wanna Figure This Out
Don't Wanna Think About You
Think About Nothing
Don't Wanna Talk This One Out
This Time I Wont Let You Bring Me Down
Won't Let You Shut Me Out
This Time I Know
I Don't Wanna Think About You
Runaway, Runnaway
I'm Running As Fast As I Can
Runaway, Runaway
I'll Never Come Back Again
Runaway, Runaway
Don't Wanna Think About You
Think About Me
Don't Wanna Figure This Out
Don't Wanna Think About You
Think About Me
Don't Wanna Talk This One OuT
I Don't Wanna Think About You
Think About Me
Don't Wanna Figure This Out
Don't Wanna Think About You
Think About Nothing
Don't Wanna Talk This One Out
This Time I Wont Let You Bring Me Down
Won't Let You Shut Me Out
This Time I Know
I Don't Wanna Think About You
Runaway Runaway
Don't Wanna Think About You
Runaway Runaway
Don't Wanna Think About You
Runaway Runaway
Don't Wanna Think About You
Runaway Runaway
Don't Wanna Think About You.

Please guide me!

Haiz

Nothing gonna be so easy.

~ .:.:. aH Hua .:.:. ~ [He the sunshine] says:
*my fren told me something ytd
*he is true.. i mean..
*bout lollipop
‡†Hoong™†‡ - √ір™ says:
*Huh?
*Wat true bout lollipop
~ .:.:. aH Hua .:.:. ~ [He the sunshine] says:
*um
*as in
*i don need him
‡†Hoong™†‡ - √ір™ says:
*Hmmm
*Really?
~ .:.:. aH Hua .:.:. ~ [He the sunshine] says:
*i don know
*im not sure wat i wan
*oi
*u thr?
‡†Hoong™†‡ - √ір™ says:
*Ya...
~ .:.:. aH Hua .:.:. ~ [He the sunshine] says:
*then u und me?
‡†Hoong™†‡ - √ір™ says:
*But without him u so miss him...
~ .:.:. aH Hua .:.:. ~ [He the sunshine] says:
*Lol
*thats why i dunno
‡†Hoong™†‡ - √ір™ says:
*U dun wanna pakto but u wan him
~ .:.:. aH Hua .:.:. ~ [He the sunshine] says:
*i miss him every day but the feeling .. dunno where it go
*yalo.. i don wan go pakto with him 1st some more
‡†Hoong™†‡ - √ір™ says:
*No miss him d?
~ .:.:. aH Hua .:.:. ~ [He the sunshine] says:
*ghot
*got
*but..
*not desperate lor..
*i think i know wat i wan gua
‡†Hoong™†‡ - √ір™ says:
*Wat u wan?
*Just be fren wif him
~ .:.:. aH Hua .:.:. ~ [He the sunshine] says:
*i guess so
*i dunno..
*LO
*LOL
*i tot i know
*but actuali i dunno
*haha
‡†Hoong™†‡ - √ір™ says:
*-.-
~ .:.:. aH Hua .:.:. ~ [He the sunshine] says:
*i think im tired
*so i don wan?
*i still dunno wat i wan
‡†Hoong™†‡ - √ір™ says:
*But u keep missing him?

*I almost the same
~ .:.:. aH Hua .:.:. ~ [He the sunshine] says:
*so how?
‡†Hoong™†‡ - √ір™ says:
*I wan her but she dun wan
~ .:.:. aH Hua .:.:. ~ [He the sunshine] says:
*wat should i do?
‡†Hoong™†‡ - √ір™ says:
*See wat u wan lorh
~ .:.:. aH Hua .:.:. ~ [He the sunshine] says:
*ok
*und
*i need time
*i don wanna hurt him
‡†Hoong™†‡ - √ір™ says:
*...
*Hurt him now itz better but i dunno la
~ .:.:. aH Hua .:.:. ~ [He the sunshine] says:
*LOL
‡†Hoong™†‡ - √ір™ says:
*If u wanna couple wif him then continue like now lo
~ .:.:. aH Hua .:.:. ~ [He the sunshine] says:
*wthh? i now just be fren with him oni.. never move on oso
‡†Hoong™†‡ - √ір™ says:
*If not then better make urself stop
~ .:.:. aH Hua .:.:. ~ [He the sunshine] says:
*ok
*und
‡†Hoong™†‡ - √ір™ says:
*Cuz u will cannot stop one
~ .:.:. aH Hua .:.:. ~ [He the sunshine] says:
*stop wat?
‡†Hoong™†‡ - √ір™ says:
*The feeling of wanting him

yea.. i wan him.. but now i don? wthhh.. i don get it..

after this conversation:

						no dear you do not NEED one then wat i wan? you're lookin for companionship, but dont go and find a guy just because u need a guy that makes u desperate, and gives the guy more power over u just because you're lonely doesnt mean u need a bf i mean.. i know exactly how u feel.. find a good friend. let it develope und it wont work out if u decide u like a total stranger i think i get it cause.. the relationship is goin to be weird yea being a good friend first.. and if u find u like each oder..den move on understand

i don know wat to do next..

Could u lead me another way out?